An old love of mine

The Strokes - You Only Live Once (Official Music Video). Watch more top selected videos about: The_Strokes

A couple of summer songs...

These make me smile and long for summer so badly!

Two Door Cinema Club - Something Good Can Work

B.O.B. feat. Bruno Mars - Nothin' On You

...and I'm smiling as we speak!

Oh! And take a look at this guy, he made quite a good cover:

What I've been upto the past days..

Okay so let me fill you in on the fun parts... Let's start at last sunday!

So sunday I was invited by my mentee, Min Ah, to a Cake-party. Very strange, very fun, great people, and apparently it's a Japanese tradition to host a cake-party. Asians dominated the party; mostly the Japanese then Koreans, there were three swedes there I think, and then one half-philippine (me). I baked a carrotcake, basically the only thing I feel super confident to bring to a party. If you'd like the recipe then holla, because it's really foolproof! And I think (hope) it was appreciated...
At the party I met really great people. Met friends of friends, and of my German pronounciation teacher. I also met friends whom I hadn't seen in ages, meaning John. He and his friend Marcus played a couple of songs on guitars for us who were at the party. They were really good! And the Kings of Leon song was naturally my favourite.

Monday I finally helped out Amnesty International with the can-collection. It was a lot of fun actually! I feel very useful for once. We were six people banging on doors around Lappis collecting cans for a good cause, enhancing peoples karma. Great stuff! We managed to fill up 7½ black disposal bags which equaled ca 490sek. Not bad at all!




Tuesday I met up with my two childhood friends, Ida and Habiba. We were going to help Ida find a present for her boyfriend. I was worried that we weren't going to be useful. I mean a present for your boyfriend or girlfriend is quite important and it has to be perfect! Then Ida filled us out on her whole plan for his birthday... And I started wondering what the fuss about the scarf really was. She has really gone all the way with his birthday, her gift(s) is sooo romantic! I can't wait for her to tell me how it worked out. Also, Habiba donated money to two guys who needed "hairspray".
Either way, we ended up shopping for ourselves instead (of course) and naturally the body needs fuel, and since I've been malnutritioned for 4 days my head started pounding like hell, we desperately went to one of the closest cafés. It turned out to be one of the cafés we frequently visit, so we were happy with our choice because their food is awesome. Unfortunately... they were closing within an hour but you could still order and that's also when I completely lost it! We all ordered different meals. Habibas and Idas were the fastest meals to prepare, mine was probably a bit more complicated. They hand out those numbder-notes to all of us except Ida. 15 minutes pass and there's 45minutes left until they close. They appear with Habibas order. They hand over the wrong one and Habiba returns it to them saying that she said pasta no sallad. Then the girl (obviously lacking service-skills!) says; "Well can't you eat this one anyway?" WTF? No she can't. She specifically ordered pasta, what's so hard to get - they didn't even have a lot of customers. Habiba receives the right order and when it has passed 30 minutes and it 30minutes left till closing time, I start asking Ida where our orders have gone and if they expect us to shove it down our throats within 5 minutes. We ask them and the first one can't reply she just says "yes" which was not a fitting answer in any way. The next one looks at us and it was obvious that they hadn't even given our orders to the chef. I got so mad, mostly because I was so hungry and had a splitting headache. The first girl comes back to us and (showing her lack of service-skills again!) says Om ni vill så kan ni få en bulle istället? I stället!? I don't think so I paid 100sek for my meal I'm not wasting it on a fucking bun. So I (rudely) exclaim that I want my money back. Apparently the girl was close to tears, but what the hell? You don't enter a job and not learn how to meet your customers... For all I cared (then) I thought she should get fired. Naturally, I was in a much foul mood then and now (with a happy stomach) I'm quite embarrassed about my behaviour. But I can't change it, and I won't return to them until about a month or two.





Then came wednesday and thursday. My baking days. I baked yet another Carrotcake and a Marängtårta for the amnesty bakesale which was held on thursday afternoon. I helped out selling after my class. It was loads of fun. Helen and I tend to get slightly pushy with it. Helen is probably more pushy than I am. But at least we get things sold and really manage to raise something.


I'm quite happy at the moment. The sun is coming out more often, it's getting slightly warmer, and my boss changed our schedule's. Menaing that I can have a regular social life again and I don't have to feel like I wither out at work every weekend. I get very other weekend off, and work perhaps a day or two more during mondays-fridays. Perhaps not the same big income but it doesn't matter for now.

Monday the 12th

So what historically happened on this day years ago?

• 1606 - The Union Jack flag was adopted as the flag of Great Britain.
• 1861 - The American Civil War (Battle Between the States) begins.
  
• 1945 - President Franklin D. Roosevelt died.
• 1955 - Polio vaccine was developed by Dr. Jonas Salk.

As I've come to learn, knowing your history is apparently very good...

Other things that happened on monday the 12th of March, but in the year of 2010:

Bianca gets a haircut and the result was shorter than expected. She mopes a bit but then remembers that her hair grows quite quickly!

Bianca also attends her first Amnesty meeting at campus with both Helen and Emily. She gets a bit involved and the first offering hands she can give is to attend the can-collection within a week from today, and also attend the bake sale. (Her mind is already composing great recipes. And soon enough her sleeves will be rolled up to her elbows, with fingers ready to bake!)

...Soothing music, for a smooth and efficient study

Jerome Robbins

Jerome Robbins was an American film director and choreographer. He was also a dancer.
His works included from classical ballet to contemporary musical theater.
At the bottom of the page, you'll find a link to a video that was aired on SVT.

Watch it! It is definitely worth your time...


http://svtplay.se/t/128511/veckans_forestallning

In moments of despair...

...a friend writes to me:

"I always like to hear from you- you can tell me whatever you want, and you can be as mad or as sad as you need to be. I trust you.

No matter where I go in my life I will not forget you. I am here for you because I am your friend, because somehow, I can't explain how, I am concerned with your existence... somehow you have added a great deal of happiness to my life."

In moments of despair, 

this- despite its cliché, 

warms the heart, and picks up spirits...

How did I wind up at square one?

How have I gotten to a place in life where everything seems to stand still? Perhaps not for everyone, but it does for me. Where has all the creativeness, the passion, my writing and knowledge gone? I have the ambition, but where is the rest?

I have had times when I feel like a complete idiot, a really stupid girl. Not taken my chances and opportunities in life, playing around doing what I've felt like doing, not seeing the benefits in what I've decided to disregard. (Those times are more reoccurring.)

Most of all, not taken the importance of each and every course that I've read throughout my school years. Like History: I've read the course, I passed the exams, I actually found certain periods interesting - but why can't I remember it, just like everyone else? Why does it feel like I subconsciously "dumb" myself down by not have taken those courses more seriously? I keep yapping on about common knowledge, and what I really should stop to ask myself is "Where is my common knowledge?".

And after graduating with what you think (and others tell you) are quite good points, you realize that you're actually fucked! They weren't that great because the programs I want to study are programs that require the full pot, meaning 2.0 (or also called 20).

To apply for Law you need 20. To apply for Economics or Math, you need 18 almost 19. I'm 0,5 points below 18 - how the hell is this going to work?

I can probably find another program but it will probably be something boring which doesn't really lead to a great job. I can continue with German, but what the hell am I going to do with that afterwards? I refuse to become a German teacher because a) I don't have the patience to teach others, and b) I don't see the charm in being a teacher overall. I don't even want to be a translator. It's hard enough knowing that, about 75%(?) of the time, translations never really get translated completely correct - and it's almost impossible to do so!

I'm an ambitious person! I strive for the top, and I can't reach it. What a blow on my ambition! I feel so deprived...

And to make me feel more deprived, I'm hoping to take my Bachelors abroad. And that is not going as splendid as I hoped.

Also, I have this dislike of being left behind. I hate being left behind. I have dreams of my own, it's just that I'm not always keen on finishing up last (not that it's a contest about who gets where first), I just really don't want years to fly by until I get somewhere!

I'd like to know where I'll end up and what I'll be doing. A reassurance that I will make it, that I will reach the goal I aim for.

But ney... and this is what I hate about the Future; that it has to terrify you so greatly.

A little eye candy...

I had nothing better to do. And I bumped into this japanese actor; Takeshi Kaneshiro.

I, who like the blond and blue eyed boy-next-door (or as my friends say; momma's boy), have recently taken a liking to Asian. Hence the fact that I myself am half Asian, I suppose my Scandinavian half found no fish in that sea and will be going fishing in the Yellow Sea instead. (That was not meant as a racial joke! There really is a Yellow Sea situated between China and Korea. Nowhere near Japan though... There's even a Black Sea, Red Sea and White Sea, fyi.)

Hmm, kind of "mustig" - as we say in Swedish - wouldn't you agree? ;)

And brace yourselves! I also like Mr. Ed Westwick...